My first write up on People was a humorous one, where I met
only one kind of people coming with only one agenda in mind: getting their
children admitted to Sir’s tuition and yet there I saw so many different
reactions. I have been spending a lot of time with Sir over a period of six
months, and among other good things I have got the chance to see and observe
the human kind as a whole. I have come across many parents and students and
observed and analyzed them at close quarters and just reached one conclusion:
people love to think that they are different and unique; but they are
incredibly similar to each other.
As Sir often thinks and talks about how so many people come
so close to him and then go away suddenly, I tried talking to a few of them to
find out a reason for their sudden disappearance. So a certain X who had spent
a considerable amount of time with Sir, spoke to him almost twenty four hours
seven days a week over chat for almost a year, had suddenly run out of things
to say to Sir. The reason as pointed out by her is that, Sir being a very
“serious” man, she can’t think of anything else to tell Sir. And also told me
that “Sir is angry” and she doesn't really know why. However she keeps sending
chats to Sir asking him, why he is not talking with her or responding to her
chats. Talking to this particular person
makes me wonder, if she actually knows what she wants! And if she does know,
why does she need to pretend? There can be just two possible things happening:
One, that she was never really interested in Sir and pretending the whole time.
And Second, she suddenly realized that any kind of relationship with Sir calls
for a serious commitment and that scared her.
Another Y, had dropped out of Sir’s life, some six years
ago. I tried talking to him too and asking him to come back. Much to my
surprise, he promptly replied to my email and told me how much he had missed
Sir for all these years, but did not get back to him because he was asked not
to. He tried to make me understand that he was all in for a reunion with Sir
but he couldn't because “Sir was angry” and he “did not know why.” He however
called up Sir to say that he has got “nothing much to say” to him and then told
me that it was all “Sir’s fault” that he couldn't talk. But then he kept
bothering me about how he missed Sir and how he was important to him and how it
is all Sir’s fault that he had to cut him off. Again I ask, why the pretense?
A certain Z, wanted to come back to Sir, and wrote to him
telling him how she wants one more chance and won’t disappoint Sir. The day
after was spent by her chatting with me and telling me how she missed him and
how she wants to come back. How eager she is and all the other things which
made me believe that she was really interested. Just twelve hours later she
shot an email telling us that she should be left alone and that she is not
really interested and again pointed out how it was all Sir’s fault. I again wonder, why did she have to pretend
that she was interested in him?
These are just a few of the many who behave exactly the same
way. You might have noticed what I am trying to point out. Without being
judgmental, I am just surprised at the incredible similarity between these
individuals. Irrespective of age and gender, they all think the same way,
behave the same way and even talk the same way. Their way of dealing with
certain things is also very similar.
I came across a number of parents as well, and one thing
very common in them is that, they tend to think, that since they have given
birth to a child, they can treat him the way they want to. They can behave like
dictators and treat them like slaves, abuse them unnecessarily, both physically
and mentally, and when the child can’t take it anymore and stands up for his
rights, the child becomes a “bad boy”, who doesn’t know how to behave. So many
people come over to Sir to complain against their sons and daughters, speaking
in a way, completely forgetting how they are at fault as well. This makes me
wonder about how these parents were brought up! Certainly parents have been the
same way generation after generation and like every generation of parents they
claim that they are better parents.
I have been teaching for some time and that has helped me
meet some more people. Students and parents alike. Sir often tells about children of 15 being
more grown up than the parents who are 50 years old. I realize how true it is. A
certain W, had a bad childhood and was sexually abused by her maternal uncle,
and is still traumatized because of that. She came to me asking for help. She
just wanted to talk to me and eventually to Sir because she hated her
counselor. Just few days later, I get a phone call from her mother asking me to
stay in my “limits” and not “provoke” her daughter against the woman’s
brother. I wonder did she really think
before saying what she did? Her daughter has been sexually abused and all she
cares about his her brother. That person, who hurt her daughter, became more
important. I laugh when these mothers
come to me and tell me that they love their daughters and are “worried” for
them.
I will tell you, she is not a very strange case. She is just
one of the many mothers who behave in this way. My mother is no different. They
somehow revel in being tyrannical and think that physical and mental abuse is
the easiest way to keep their children under “control”. That is how they can
gain respect from them and that is how the child is going to “love” them.
The purpose of writing about all these people is not merely
to judge them or improve them. It is just a way of expressing my sense of
wonder and amazement to the fact that human beings are so similar to each
other, in the way they behave. You can actually group them in certain categories.
When observed closely, you can notice how desperately people try to fit
themselves in that category. Females, irrespective of their age, try very hard
to look pretty, have an obsession for shoes, cry for every small things
possible, have a strong liking for tall handsome hunks, have to wear dresses
that “accentuates” their body (and then shout if men lech at them!), talk about
fashion and dresses and make ups, consider reading to be boring (I am talking
of the majority of women here, and not about the smaller group who thinks
differently.).
Males on the other hand like to pretend to be the “cool
strong handsome hunk” types, who don’t have a heart and can’t feel anything.
They don’t have emotions and can talk only about cars and bikes and read
Playboy and other sports’ magazine.
Parents are supposed to be strict, tyrannical, inhuman
beings who can only shout at their children and force them to live their life
the way the parents want them to. They expect to be respected and consider
their duties towards their children as favors and keep talking about it all the
time. If the children stand up for themselves, they are considered to be ill
mannered.
What is funny is that in spite of people being exact mirror
images of each other; they claim to be “individuals”. Little do they realize
that they are no better than herds of animals who come and go in groups making
no significant difference in anybody’s life. I wonder can’t they see each
other? Or is it that they like being one of the herd?