That expression tops my list of most-used-word-when-elated
for the past few days. I picked it up from the character of Col. Frank from the
movie The Scent Of a Woman. The part is played by whom else but Al Pacino.
It’s not the actor or the movie(though the acting is
wonderfully flawless and the movie now tops the list of my favourites), but
about the character. The Colonel is a
retired army officer, after serving the country for 26 years, and losing his
vision. He sits in a room these days, in his niece’s house and drowns himself
in about 40 pegs of his favourite “John Daniels”(Jack Daniels whiskey. As he
claims, he is an old friend so he lovingly calls him John.).
The first impression of the man is someone very rude. He
looks down upon people for being even slightly weak and judges them by their
skin. Poor little Charlie, who had come forward to baby sit the blind man on a
weekend job for easy money realises within the first 30 seconds of his
interaction with the colonel, the money is not going to be really easy.
As we get to know the man better through Charlie’s eyes, we
realise that he is really a man of feelings and one with a good heart down
there. He puts up this mask of his harsh presence to cover up his shortcoming.
To cover up the fact, that he messed it up real bad, when he was at service
because he was standing up. Because, he had some principles.
Besides having a strong personality, he has, as he says, a
strong liking for women. And a very far second one is Ferraris. He has a talent of
telling what perfume the woman has used very accurately. He says he likes all
kinds of women: Ones with long hairs, ones with short, and how he would do anything
to bury his face in those long curls and sleep forever. He likes women with “big
tits as well as small” and he doesn't mind even if the legs are like “Greek
Columns” because there is “heaven In between them”. He almost objectifies
women, until we get to know the real yearning down his heart: “you know
Charlie, what gets me going? The hope that someday I will find a woman, who
would wrap her arms around me, and wrap her legs around me, and still be there,
smelling like fresh grass, the next morning.”
That changes my perspective of the man. All his life, he has
been looking for company. For partnership of that one woman, who is perfect and
who will be his. That says something about the man. He could get any woman he
wants with that charming powerful personality of his. But if only…
That made me brood about things around me. I have seen
people around me who are happily married for over 25 years now. Have they
really found their perfect muse? The one with whom they can be perfectly happy?
Or is it just another compromise to make themselves believe that they can’t do
better? Or have they just given up the hope of getting their dream love and
just surrendered to the reality?
A few days back, I was sitting beside the small lake at
Lodhi gardens(I often do that because it gives me a certain peace of mind), and
I watched two ducks swimming together till the middle of the lake. They seemed
like some of the couples who were walking hand in hand on the soft grass ahead
of me. And then suddenly, one of the ducks, turned back and started swimming back
to join the others, leaving the other one in the middle of the lake. The duck
left alone, seemed quite lost.
It turned it’s head left and right wondering
what just happened and then looked at the duck swimming away and gave out a
cry, as if saying: “what happened? Why are you leaving me out here?” The other
duck just looked back gave a shake of it’s head and continued swimming, as if
saying, “you are not the one I was looking for. Move on buddy.”
It is sad how trivial companionship means these days, or was
it always like that? Do my generation really understand the meaning of promises
and giving your word to someone? Or is it that my dad’s generation took it too
seriously because they knew they had no other choice but to stick to the woman,
he has married?
I came across this new term, “casual sex” when I was doing
my post graduation from a journalism school.
Everyone seemed to be or at least
appeared to be quite “cool” with having a casual bout of hormones running
through them, and they would jump on bed with some random person of the
opposite sex, have some “fun” and the next morning they would be strangers. I
often wondered is it that easy to just have sex (I would call it intercourse
though) with someone without any emotions being involved? Or is it only me who
is too back dated to not being a robot? I mean not that I haven’t had sex with
people, whom I had no intentions of even dating, but there were emotions
involved. I liked the men I took to bed, and we obviously were more than just
strangers the next morning.
I always thought that I was not meant for this planet. I
have been quite different from most of my peers, (gladly so) and have often
been called unhinged or weird. But then as I think about it, alone, but not
lonely, staring at the red-orange glow of the cigarette, I just smile and say,
HOO-AAAH!! Yes I am different from most of you, and yes I am better.
P.S. this was written originally on 5.6.2013. On reading it
now, it seems like I had started it with the intentions of writing a review of
the movie, but I ended up just rambling about the thoughts boggling my mind.
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